Jun. 23rd, 2016

bluealoe: (BlueAloe)
Ten years.

I feel like I should write something thought-provoking or sentimental or even gut-wrenching, but I have nothing. It's all been said before. All I have are disjointed fragments of thoughts, enveloped in a cloud of sadness.

Ten years is a long time, but no time at all.

The years from 1996 to 2006 took forever. But the years from 2006 to 2016 were nothing. It literally feels like yesterday. I know I've grown, changed, accomplished lots of things, had adventures I never thought I would...but it doesn't FEEL like it. I still feel like the same person who answered the phone that morning and had her world shattered. I'm still trying to pick up all the pieces and mold them into a new life.

There are two songs that have been running through my head all morning....."Now you're expecting me to live without you, but that's not something that I'm looking forward to"...."I refuse to surrender the small part of me that is you".

I was looking for a picture of Dad to put here, something to sum up who he was. But how can you summarize a person with one image? There's too much there. The master of terrible jokes, the serious advice-giver, the silly kid, the hard worker, the coffee drinker, the aspiring chef, the historian, the knife-maker, the game-player, the outdoorsman, the hugger, the mayor and manager, the retired person who didn't give a damn, the one who was always always always there for me, the loving and loved father.

In the end I decided on a picture that reminds me of my childhood, yet reminds me to leap into the future.

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I love you, Dad.


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